I’m a rape survivor! I don’t want to go into the whole story, because I will break down and cry, but it was an awful experience that ruined my life for good. I think about it all the time, and I still feel disgusting. I wanted to tear all my skin off my body at the time. It’s terrifying. I felt like I was screaming at the top of my lungs, but in reality, I couldn’t move; couldn't say a word. It was kind of an out of body experience. I remember going home running to the bath room and taking a hot bath and just sat there in the tub scrubbing, trying to erase his touch. I just couldn’t get rid of it. I was so ashamed and violated. I thought a lot about suicide those days that followed. I just wanted to die; I wanted it over. I got so much isolated afterwards, I didn’t leave my house for months, couldn’t face the world. I rejected engaging in any relationship. Currently, I’m trying gradually to go back to the old me, I want to forget all about the past and start over. I know that living in a religious strict society like Egypt, I couldn’t face the world as a raped victim; I know it’s not my fault but still in our society it’s hard to be accepted. Who on earth is going to marry a raped woman? Will he believe me if I told him that I'm not a virgin because I got raped? I doubt it. I’m thinking of having an artificial hymen so that I forget about my past and start over. Will I be deceiving the man I’ll marry, or it's just not my fault so I have the right to live normally. Please advice
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Ask Marwa: I am a rape survivor (Identity Magazine) - Marwa Rakha
Ask Marwa: I am in love with my best friend’s husband (Identity Magazine) - Marwa Rakha
Breakups are never easy and after 15 years of marriage, you forgot who you were or what you did with your life before you got married. You no longer know who you are or what you want! Your friend's husband was your rock; he should have been the doctor or the teacher but he became the "thief". He took advantage of your weakness and confusion. I will not waste my reply on him; I want to address you!
TELEVISION FOR GOMHOREYAT MASR EL ARABEYA! TV FOR THE NATION! - Marwa Rakha
One happy morning the colors on my television decided to stick to green and blue! I insisted on watching. A few days later, my receiver broke down! I took it as a sign from above that TV is bad for a lactating mama like myself (breastfeeding ya3ni!) I remembered my dear friend Shady Sherif and decided to pay his El Gomhoreya TV a visit (http://www.elgomhoreya.tv)
I loved it! The major strengths of this channel are excellent streaming and fast browsing, the choice to subscribe to updates to your favorite shows, and perfect use of social media sharing tools. There is also a big obvious visible button saying "To send us your work click here" – this is an invitation for people to participate and become active players in El Gomhoreya TV. Now I do not have TV at home, I watch El Gomhoreya TV on the television screen and I lived happily ever after!
Shady Sherif clearly states his mission saying:
The @DrBassemYoussef Show - Marwa Rakha
Early March 2010, Hala Diab – my friend and Dr. Bassem's wife – posted a link of the first episode of The Bassem Youssef Show – The B+ Show as it was originally called – on my wall on facebook. At the time I was eight months pregnant and my online activity dropped tremendously. I did not watch the show but I left the link on my wall. Within a few days, the episode went viral and everyone was sharing it. Bloggers were writing about Bassem Youssef. More episodes followed that were met with the same success. I got out of my cave and watched that first episode and laughed … I laughed out loud as I enjoyed the satire! A few weeks later I gave birth and was totally sucked into motherhood. In Ramadan 2011 – 4 months later – I was happily surprised to see Bassem Youssef on ONTV's screen! "The Program" became the new name of "B+" and the show maintained its original spirit but developed into full blown 30 minute episodes.