لغة الضاد

أنا الظاهر كده ايدى أخدت على العربى و بقيت كل ما أتضايق من حاجة فى مصر أو تخص مصر بقيت باكتبها بالعربى علشان أضمن انى اتفهم صح. الحكاية النهارده ان كل كام يوم واحدة صديقه تبعت لى لينك لمقالة منشوره على النت عن الكتاب بتاعى - شجرة السم - أو
The Poison Tree
و كل مرة قلبى بيطير من السعاده ان فى ناس قرأت الكتاب و قررت تكتب رأيها - حلو ولا وحش ده مش موضوعى خالص لان انا من المدرسة بتاعه حرية الرأى و احترام الآخر و الكلام ده. و كل مرة أفتح اللينك أصاب باحباط شنيع لأن الكاتب أو الكاتبة لم يتناول الكتاب و لا الكلام اللى انا كاتباه فى الكتاب و باكتشف ان انا و كتابى تحولنا الى "ظاهرة" على حد تعبيرهم و تعبير النقاد اللى عبروا عن رأيهم ... هل أنا ظاهرة لأنى بنت مصرية بتتكلم عن عذرية الفتى و الفتاه؟ لأ طبعا !! طيب هل انا ظاهرة لانى بنت مصرية بتقول بابا و ماما و كتير من الآباء و الأمهات كلامهم طلع غلط؟ لأ برضه ... طيب يمكن لأنى بتكلم عن الخيانة و عن الازدواجيه وتجربتى مع المواقع الاباحيه و الكلام الغريب ده؟ أبدا

انا بقيت ظاهرة و اتعمل عليا "قعر مجلس" علشان انا فلحوصة و بكتب بالانجليزى ... انا مش عارفة فين الظاهرة فى كده؟ مين اللى بيكتب فى الاهرام ويكلى و الجازيت و الديلى ستار و ايجبت توداى و بيزنس توداى و كامبس و انيجما و انسايت و ايدينتيتى ولايف و غيرها من المجلات و الجرائد الصادرة باللغة الانجليزية فى مصر؟ طيب و المراسلين بتوعنا فى بلاد بره؟ و اللى بيقروا نشرة الاخبار باللغة الانجليزية على قنواتنا ... ما احنا كلنا مصريين .... امال اللى بيتخرجوا من السن و أداب انجليزى و غيرها من الجامعات اللى بتخرج ظواهر غريبة زى حلاتى يروحوا فين؟ ولا يدرسوا ليه أصلا؟

و اللى زود الطينة بلة الناس اللى بيقولوا ان الكتب باللغة الانجليزية مش ليها جمهور!!!! يا سلام على الفتى و النصاحة!! يعنى كل المجلات و الجرايد اللى انا رصتها فوق ديه الناس بتقلى عليها بطاطس؟ و كتابى اللى بايع أكتر من 700 نسخة فى 3 شهور ده برضه خيالى المريض؟ و الجروب بتاع الكتاب على الفيس بوك اللى عدى ال 700 مشترك برضه هلاوس مصاحبة للظاهرة؟ انا مش عارفة المشكلة فين ... هل هى قصر ذيل - لا مؤاخذة - و لا هى فضا و اناشيد و شعارات عليها التراب و لا ممكن تكون خوف من التطور .. اه ما انا كده متطوره و كتابى عدى حدود مصر لانه بلغة عالميه! و لا هو نقد و خلاص؟

يعنى ايه غيرة على اللغة العربية؟ كل شويه حد يقول ان انا و الظاهرة بتاعتى تهديد للغه و اهانة لجلالتها!! يا قوم .... فى حاجة اسمها مواكبه العصر و فى حاجة تانية اسمها التميز و فى حاجة تالتة اسمها اختلاف الأذواق و الاحتياجات و فى حاجة أهم اسمها حريه التعبير و كل واحد من حقه يعبر باللغة اللى تعجبه أو بالأداه اللى تريحه. و بعدين مش لازم ننسى تقبل الآخر .... تقبل حد فكره و شكله و كلامه مختلف عنى ... يعنى هل انا عمرى هاجمت حد بيكتب بالعربى مثلا و قلت ده تخلف؟ طبعا لأ ... مش من حقى!! و مش من حق أى حد مهما بلغ علمه انه يحقر منى و لا من افكارى و لا من كتابتى و لا من اللغة اللى انا اخترتها و لا من الجمهور اللى بيقرا لى. و بعدين ما انا شفت كتاب شباب زى الورد كتبوا بالعربى ... و اتهاجموا هجوم المرتدين علشان كتبوا بالعامية ... و فى ناس تانية اتهمتهم انهم عار على الكتابة لأنهم احتاجوا مراجعة لغوية ..... اسمه ايه بقى ده؟!!! مش عيب كده و لا هو نقد و السلام و صوت عالى و خلاص؟

Egypt police seize book published by jailed blogger

Reuters - Wednesday, April 16

CAIRO - Egypt's vice squad raided the offices of a publisher and blogger, already detained for backing a general strike last week, and took away copies of one of his publications, his fiancee said on Tuesday.

Their main target was the graphic novel Metro by author Magdy al-Shafei, which came out in January and has already been widely sold, fiancee Naira El Sheikh told Reuters.

The publisher is Mohamed el Sharkawi, who has been in custody since April 6, the day activists called for a general strike to coincide with a textile strike in the Nile Delta.

"They made the accountant, who was the only person in the office, sign an undertaking to ensure that any copies returned are sent to the vice police," she added.

Sheikh said she interpreted the raid as an act of revenge by the police, who were much criticized in 2006 and 2007 for their treatment of Sharkawi during an earlier spell in custody. Sharkawi says police tortured and raped him.

"They are settling their score with him. It's payback time for him because of the media frenzy last year," she said.

Police also took away contracts and downloaded the phone number memory from the land line, she added.

The vice squad usually deals with sexual offences but Sheikh said the novel had no more sex than other recent publications which have not had trouble with the authorities.

An Interior Ministry spokesman said they had no information about the raid.

Reflections on Nudity

This note was triggered by three thoughts; I wanted to look up the difference between nude and naked, I was thinking of the origin of inhibitions, and I wish there would be a nude beach in Egypt.

Wikipedia answered my first question saying that "a "nude" person is unclad by choice and is generally shameless; a "naked" person is involuntarily caught undressed and is generally embarrassed"

I agree .... nude celebrities are famous people who posed without clothes on and were not ashamed. Naked celebrities implies that they were caught off guard with no clothes on ... and they were violated.

Inhibitions ... how I hate them and loathe their suffocating effect. I used to have birds and I am the sensual type ... meaning I relate to most things using my senses ... I loved the first couple I got the most. I was 12 and I named them Tootie and Sweetie:) I loved looking at them, listening to them, and by time I grew a certain addiction to the scent of their feathers. I would sneak a finger every now and then between the bars in an attempt to touch their colorful feathers .. but that was not enough .. I wanted to hold them in my hands ... my father said they were scared and they might fly away.

Tootie and Sweetie "got married" - this is what mom said to justify the eggs in the nest. I will not get into details about the mating itself ... this is another story:) Sweetie laid one egg and when the egg hatched, Fruitie was born. He had blue feathers like his parents but his feathers were shinier, fuller, and way more tempting for me to touch. I opened the door and reached inside the cage, Tootie and Sweetie hid in their nest while Fruitie just stood there. I caressed his back ... and he stood there ... I patted his head ... and he stood there ... I touched his beak .. and he stood there ... I curled my fingers around him and took him out of the cage .. he did not struggle ... I put him on my stretched forefinger .. he stood there and looked at me ... I kissed his head ... he did not fly.

A week later, I wanted to show a friend how my baby bird loved me ... I put my hand in the cage .. Tootie, Sweetie, and Fruitie hid in the nest and my experiment failed. Where did he get this fear from when he was born fearless? I can understand fearing fire when you get burnt or fearing pain when you get hurt but is it possible to fear things that we were told to fear? Is it possible to fear something that exists only in our head? Is that how it works with society? We were told by our parents who were told by their parents who were told by their parents that we should fear people and their opinions of us, that we should fear our bodies and where they could lead us, that we should fear anyone or anything that looks, sounds, or feels different because we do not know what harm it could do, and that we should just fear the unknown.

I think of Fruitie a lot ... I like the original form he was born into ... I like the original form I was born into ... I am striving for utter and complete nudity ... in my writings I am nude ... and the more I expose of myself the more my readers connect with me ... whether they agree with my ideas or not, they respect my nudity ... there is a sweet sense of liberation that comes with shedding off inhibitions ... I no longer make love to words in the dark ... I no longer insist on keeping the cover ... I no longer feel ashamed of myself ... my scars no longer embarrass me ... We were all born nude ... not just physically nude ... mentally and emotional nude ... then we deteriorated!!

This is where my third thought comes in ... the nude beach ... when I first met SandMonkey, he asked me to name a dream ... I told him that I wished there was a nude beach in Egypt. He laughed. He understood. I am not advocating vice or sin now, but look at it this way ... having a nude beach in Egypt is the optimum freedom ... if such a beach exists it would mean the following:

1) Muslim Brothers finally understood that Islam is not about judging people and pointing fingers at those who differ

2) Mulsims and Christians will have no issues because we have all developed something called tolerance

3) The government, by approving this idea, will have finally grasped the true essence of democracy

4) Opposition will have no case to argue for or against ....

5) People - us Egyptians - will realize that we all have a choice ... a choice in what to hide and what to expose ... I am not just talking physically

6) Relationships will grow beyond lust

7) Women will finally come to terms with their bodies (No more .. I want a bigger this or a smaller that)

8) Beauty will have a new definition .. a more realistic one

9) Men will know that being "a good girl" is not a matter of dress code

10) After people are done criticizing the nude beach and condemning me of immorality, they might get some work done.