I read your story and I am beyond infuriated! I am not angry at you sweetheart! I am angry at your parents for not noticing. I am angry at them for not educating you and your brothers and sisters on the limits between brothers and sisters. I am angry at your mom for not properly sexually educating you. I am angry at your father for not teaching you the difference between a brotherly touch and a dirty one. I am angry at your parents for refusing to let you see a psychiatrist. I am angry at your brothers who are a complete disgrace.