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Friday, June 15, 2007

The Witch Effect



In my Pocahontas nighty, with a whole bar of chocolate stuffed in my mouth and empty wrappers all around me, I watched Nicole Kidman’s and Will Ferrell’s Bewitched. I needed a distraction. I wanted to give my mind a break. It should have been a nice funny romantic chick flick movie but I found myself drifting away from the main plot and the sub plots, and sinking into a plot of my own; I drew a parallel line between the witch, Nicole Kidman, as Isabel Bigelow, and myself – Don’t laugh! I am not talking looks wise! I outgrew that illusion a few years back!

Let me show you how I ingeniously came to that conclusion; the first thing that got my attention was Isabel’s taste in men. She fell in love with Will Ferrell, playing Jack Wyatt, at first sight. Why? Because he was a mess! He even spelt it out for her: “I am a mess. I am a jerk, number one, extremely arrogant, and I love to bleach my hair out.” I thought I was the only girl on earth with self destructive tendencies, bad taste in guys, and a shallow streak! – I thought wrong!

A few minutes later in the movie, Isabel could not stand the thought of not telling her beloved Jack that she was a witch! She did not want to trick him into loving her, she wanted him to love her for who she really was. – sounds painfully familiar! She struggled with her fear, put her strength together, and blurted it out in his face; “Guess what? I'm a witch!” she said, and what did she get in return? Sarcasm! “Guess what? I'm a Clippers fan!” Jack replied! Poor Isabel was left with the only choice of having to demonstrate her powers. – I do that too!


His laughter stopped. His face changed. He finally realized that she is a broom-flying spell-casting cauldron-brewing witch! Like a lot of guys out there, Jack could not handle her supernatural gift. Behind Isabel’s angelic face and frail figure, lies a witch! In the fifteenth century Europe, and for centuries to follow, witch-hunts involving moral panic, hysterical masses, and mob lynching, resulted in tens of thousands of executions. The thought of having a witch in town evoked superstitious fear, not to mention dating one or, even worse, getting married to one.


Over the centuries, ignorant masses killed any alleged practitioners of witchcraft, and labeled the gifted as quacks who practiced nothing but extortion and fraud. People who failed to comprehend, and accept, the differences that witches brought to the table found it easier to drown, hang, stone, or execute them. The poor witches were alienated in their exile, and eventually, the whole species became extinct and the commoners lived in peace. Books say that witch-hunts ended in the eighteenth century – Oh! did they?


I guess not! today, women who have brains, character, and experience are treated the same way witches were treated in the dark ages. Girls, like me, who ask questions and who insist on being honest and straightforward are castaways in this patriarchal society. As human beings, we are inclined to reject people who differ from us; different in how they look, how they talk, and how they think. Watching Isabel’s witch-effect on Jack brought back instantaneous memories of my very own witch-effect on men.


Flying and crashing seems to be a pattern in my relationships; I am a relationships expert and I advise people on their love lives, but when it comes to me, my men, and my love life, I am totally clueless. After the initial click, I stupidly, yet willingly, decide to put aside my spells, charms, amulets, and witchcraft. I leave my flying broom at home, get out of my human cloak, and I reveal the real witch within. I express myself with a cursed clarity that leaves no room for confusion or speculation. I share my articles along with my dreams. I show the different dimensions of my character. – I wish there was a delete button in real life!


In my relationships, I turn into a cute kangaroo that is trying to walk gracefully in a china shop. But alas! With the first step in the shop, I intimidate the owner, who reaches out for his gun. A few more steps and I begin breaking his antique rules. And by the time I reach him, he is totally panicked and freaked out. He aims the gun at me. I plead. He looks me in the eye. My eyes water. He orders me to get out before I create any more damage. I beg him not to fear me. He pulls the trigger. I get hurt. Witch or no witch, I bleed like normal human beings, I feel the pain, and I moan in agony; a moan that he cannot hear!


In the movie, Jack realized that his love for Isabel is bigger and stronger than his fear of her being a witch. He followed her home only to catch her before she took off on her broom. The happy lovers reunited and lived happily ever after. This is the part that I never got to experience. Once a witch always a witch! People will always hunt me down and try to get rid of my evil influence. They will stone me with their cruel words and ruthless judgments, drown me in negligence and guilt, hang me on the alter of ignorance, point a finger at my scars, and deprive me of true love.

Now I am a witch in hiding; here now on this page I vow to never ever reveal my true nature before a living soul. Like my fellow witches, I will lead a double life. Yes! I have been defeated, but how much rejection can a witch handle? From now onwards, I will lie about the past, cheat in the present, hide in the future. Yes! I have given up, but how much longer was I supposed to fight? I will master the art of nodding, bowing, and smiling and, forever, I will relinquish the rebel that took home in my soul.
No … No … I can’t … ok … one more round … just one more! I just hope that you are real – and handsome – I just hope that you can handle the witch-effect!

13 comments:

Eyad Harfoush said...

I do not see it that dark ya Marwa, if only you can delete two words from your pre-requisites list "Handsome" & "Single" :), very glad to see your posts coming frequent again

Eyad Harfoush said...

By the way, talking Nicole Kidman specifically, there is quite good similarity in looks, and this is not a flert. It is true

Mo said...

Hello ya witty Witch:)
I wonder what you meant by your "witch effect" on men? Did you mean the part where you cast a spell and have them fall in love with you? (and read your blog daily)... or did you mean the part when they freak out because they find out that you think too much and are strongly opinionated on most issues?

In our society, the majority of men don't like a woman that has experience. You've discussed that before I know (your friend's dilemma with his non-virgin wife-to-be), and yes; thats how most men think. It is a very complicated issue. I can neither blame a man for feeling uneasy about his woman's past experiences, nor can I blame the woman for choosing to be honest.

Some men would insist on getting the truth, all the truth, and nothing but the truth. His mind might be capable of dealing with this truth - but if you dont believe he can handle it, then don't give it to him - and yes, maybe it is just best to lie, or better: walk away. Because he will not stop pushing until he gets a blast that he just can't tolerate.

I know of one lucky lady that offered her then-fiance to tell him all the truth. The guy was wise enough to choose not to know. This scenario saved the mind of that eastern man the pain he can go through by getting to know any details - and it also saved the young woman the feeling that she deceived her man.

Just be the witch you are. Every person is the result of a group of experiences. You can't pick and choose. Take it or leave it as-is. And if Mr. Handsome can't handle the witch-effect, we can always pass some antidote.:)

Mo

Breath said...

Hello

Your article put a smile on my face and don't know why although i took it very seriously; i guess the resemblance in some situations created the smile.
I disagree with you ;you can't give up to be accepted or to be loved; not for a one more round or two; you can't give up on yourself AT ALL!You are who you are and if he is not able to deal with that then it will just another story in your lifebook.

I understand that successive unsucessful stories can create a pattern and you have to be the pure substance of optimism to overcome a nice series of deceptions; unfortunately all stories you are experiencing lead to the same basket but to try to look at each as a different story as an uncorrelated events ;for sure from each story you learned a new aspect a new trick:)

I think we should be happy and content as much as we can with the way we are and with ourselves because at the end of the day it is us and the way we see our inside what matters not how others see us or can accept us.

Always be fresh and don't let life or being different take that from you.

And as MO said it is more realistic to take persons as they are either you like them accept them and can get along with them or simply you can't.

Regarding middle centuries witch stories i have an ironic one: they used to tie a stone to a witch and throw her in open water, if she survived then she is a witch if she sank; poor her she was an innocent!

Marwa Rakha said...

Hello Eyad:) It is not dark at all .... it is just very detailed and sharp:)

Marwa Rakha said...

Oh Mo ... your words are so powerful;) I am still struggling with the love spells chapter:)

My honesty box is feeling cold and empty:)

I have a problem with not telling the truth .. the whole truth ... so help me God:)

Marwa Rakha said...

Thank you Breath for understanding and for your support .... Your words are just inspiring:) Every time I think of giving up on myself, I will read your words:)

Miss Egyptiana "Trapped Soul" said...

first ... let me express my admiratio to your post, i loved every word, and feel it too

one specific phrase made me think a lot, and triggered many thoughts; "Like my fellow witches, I will lead a double life."

- being different is a curse, i have tried so much to be another, to adopt a double life, to shut up and never show my face, but it was too painful... and the result was never satisfactory, cause i will be fake and not me...

- men ask for the truth ad when they know it, they blame you for every word you say

- i think that hiding the ones truth is kinda deceiving !!!

- why not be me!!! why be another !!!

- single and me, or in love and another ... the choice is ours ... win a man and loose yourself ... where is the good in that !!!!!!

- i decided to be no one but myself... and not another... i will win myself... and when he come, it is either to accept me the way i am... or he will be exiled out of my heaven

the witch effect !!! who can deal with that!!!

Marwa Rakha said...

Trapped Soul .. I still have the feeling that your soul is trapped inside my body ... you are me:)

Miss Egyptiana "Trapped Soul" said...

i strongly agree with you dear marwa ... two faces of one coin !!! isn't that lovely :)

Wael Nawara said...

Marwa, it is beautiful and very brave of you to come out like this.

Of course, a "few" of us had already recognized you for whom you truly are.

I say no more.

hendelsamad said...

brave you ymero iam so admirable of your ideas and how you get your own plot and your one think .iam agree with Trapped Soul and mo .the atual problem that men love to be decived and not preferd agirl like you who are so honest and stright forward. they want you to be acopy of other who alwyas burry their heads in sand and burry ther old memories.but you cant loes yourself an be breathless by the other couse in that time you will hate this fake victory and you will suffur more than you got.and happy life must be with the same person who can cope with such honsty of you ,who is n his ways to get the same fresh breath you always searching about.so be the wicth you are and never ever give up to such hollow world of men. persons who give theire persons an eternal break:).and i myself see that our ways shold be truth . truth and truth lik we said(alsedk monaje)

hendelsamd said...

brave you ymero iam so admirable of your ideas and how you get your own plot and your one think .iam agree with Trapped Soul and mo .the atual problem that men love to be decived and not preferd agirl like you who are so honest and stright forward. they want you to be acopy of other who alwyas burry their heads in sand and burry ther old memories.but you cant loes yourself an be breathless by the other couse in that time you will hate this fake victory and you will suffur more than you got.and happy life must be with the same person who can cope with such honsty of you ,who is n his ways to get the same fresh breath you always searching about.so be the wicth you are and never ever give up to such hollow world of men. persons who give theire braines an eternal break:).and i myself see that our ways shold be truth . truth and truth lik we said (alsedk monaje)